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I'm hopelessly hopeful, that you're just hopeless
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[Aug. 8th, 2005|09:04 pm] |
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| | From First to Last | ] |
I have a new screen name it is xxYourSecretsOut so add it! |
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[Aug. 8th, 2005|11:18 am] |
"Giving Up" -Silverstein
I used to make the light shine for you,
The sun has left my sky.
Velvet walls surround my sorrows,
I've sacrificed my pride.
Giving up on me,
You're giving up on me
Giving up on me,
You're giving up on me.
I've laid myself to sleep tonight
I know you've played out everything in your mind.
And now you throw it all away,
A shattered memory that you would stay.
Through thick and thin with me,
You're giving up on me.
Giving up on me,
You're giving up on me
Giving up on me,
You're giving up on me.
I lied myself to sleep tonight
I know, you've played out every line in your mind
And now you throw it all away
A shattered memory that you would stay
Through thick and thin with me.
And when you feel the pain,
I'm wishing I could stay.
How can I say I love you back,
You never made me happy.
You've laid yourself to sleep!
I never said this wouldn't hurt.
You gave up everything!
I never said I'd give it back.
I know! (I know!)
You'll never change!
I won't be good enough for you.
I know! (I know!)
You'll make it through,
I'll never be around to see.
And now you throw it all away
A shattered memory that you would stay
Through thick and thin with me.
You're giving up on me |
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[Aug. 7th, 2005|11:15 pm] |
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I am soo sick of not being good enough for everyone..my friends..my parents..certian boys..and most importantly myself..and I am sick of crying about it 'cause it just sucks..and I hate it . And at the moment I dont really feel like I have someone to talk to about anything..it just seems that whenever I talk to someone they arent listening or dont care and I know that it is true because I will be pouring my heart out to them and then then they will be like "sorry what were you saying" or you can just tell by the look in their eye that they are not interested in what I am saying. And I mean I am there for everyone all the time. people call me in the middle of the night to talk to me and no matter what time it is I answer the phone and listen ..I mean a complete stranger could come up to me and I would genuinely care about what they are telling me. And that has happened before. I mean I have gone to parties and go to walk in the bathroom and there be a girl crying about how her boyfriend did something and I was there for her and had no idea who she was..and its like my friends just dont seem to care..idk..it just sucks |
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[Aug. 7th, 2005|10:51 pm] |
I hate this feeling of reject..I absoultly do!! I think that it is the worst feeling in the world and makes you just feel like shit..I would really like to talk to someone about it so if you want to know what is up IM me MixPixGirlie66 thanks
..::Mandi::.. |
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| Being bored at 1 am |
[Aug. 5th, 2005|01:16 pm] |
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| | Blink-182 | ] |
Missy and I went to go play pool and then desided to frive around Wausau to see if we could find some funny signs to take pics by..but couldn't really find any..Yup.. for sure.. this is why I NEED to get out of Wausau..lol. There is nothing to do. |
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[Aug. 1st, 2005|09:39 pm] |
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So I am in the process of looking for a new job..does anyone know anywhere that is looking for people?? I got an app for Hot Topic..but I dont think that they will hire me. I just can not stand working at Aqua Finance ANY LONGER!!! Over a year is enough for me..that is for sure!! Ehh.. I hate it. But enough about that. |
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| So here I am are you ready? |
[Jul. 30th, 2005|11:23 pm] |
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| [ | Toons |
| | "Always"-Blink-182 | ] |
Wow...I don't even know. I like this boy soo much that I don't even know what to say. It's like everything that I am always saying that I want in a guy and now it's right in front of me. Just the way that it feels like my heart is going to jump out of my chest whenever I see him. And when he holds me..it just feels soo..safe...and I never want to let go. And the way that he puts my hair behind my ear and kisses my forhead...and his hand always finds mine.. And his eyes ..are soo beautiful..idk.. he just makes me really happy and makes me feel like I am wanted..I am just really glad that we are friends and hopefully things will be more than that.
..::Mandi::.. |
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[Jul. 29th, 2005|10:30 pm] |
Well..tonight I started working on my painting of the My Chemical Romance cd cover..I started the girl but am waiting for the girl to dry so that I can touch up and fix and add some things Mine  orginal 
I'll keep you posted on it if any one cares..lol. |
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[Jul. 29th, 2005|09:46 pm] |
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| | From First to Last | ] |
I want a boy to sing this to me.. but change the name from Emily to Mandi.. it would be too cute =)
"Emily" - From First to Last
Smiles and her laughter
its the only thing that I've been waiting for a time
regardless of our distance and our hope...grows greater
trapped by pretty eyes and letters for all time
...the only thing that I've been waiting for.
I hope it's something worth the waiting
cause its the only time that I ever feel real
thunder storms could never stop me
cause there's no one in the world like Emily
she's simple yet confusing
her sparkling eyes make me weak and my words, they tremble
days seem like years in this month of December
the winter coldens me for I have yet to sleep
and never will I give up trying because you're everything to me
I hope it's something worth the waiting
its the only time that I ever feel real
thunder storms could never stop me
cause there's no one in the world like Emily,
there's no one in the world like Emily. |
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| Remind me which side you should be on |
[Jul. 29th, 2005|12:00 pm] |
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| | Fall Out Boy | ] |
My room: (some bands are outdated.. sence I did my room Freshman year)
 (Jack's doesn't have feet because my dresser used to be in that spot and I am too lazy to finish it.
 <--What a whore bag. lol. |
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| I'm not ok.. I'm not O fucking K |
[Jul. 27th, 2005|10:02 pm] |
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| [ | Toons |
| | My Chemical Romance | ] |
Well.. I thought that my Senior pics were on Friday but I guess that they are tomorrow..so I had to hurry and pick out outfits..which I don't like . IT's one of thoes days where I think that I look like shit no matter what I have on. SO I am thinking that I am not going to have a good day tomorrow. I don't know..I kinda feel like crying actully. idk..it's fucked.
..::Mandi::.. |
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| I can feel my mind, wandering again. |
[Jul. 26th, 2005|10:06 pm] |
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| [ | Toons |
| | From First to Last | ] |
I am in one of thoes moods where there is soo much that is going on in my head that I just feel really shitty. I dont know I think that I need to just get a good nights sleep. That would probably help. I skipped out on work tonight and hung out with Luke. He makes me happy and I like it. I have senior pics on Friday and I dont have any outfits picked out and I have to come up with 16 so I should probabaly do that sometime soon. I think that I am just going to get going to bed.
..::Mandi::.. |
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| Warped Tour |
[Jul. 25th, 2005|06:04 pm] |
 My hair for the event.
 Us at 4 am leaving for MN.
=) I talked to Fall Out Boy! =) |
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| ******* |
[Jul. 13th, 2005|04:47 pm] |
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| | Story of the Year | ] |
So I haven't written in here in a long time. Nothing too exciting has really happened. I am going out of town..so that is pretty fun I guess. My senior pics are at the end of the month that is pretty exciting I guess..lol. Um I cant believe that school is going to start in like a month and a half..waaaaay to soon for me..but I;ll be a senior so it's all good. |
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| I tip my glass to you |
[Jun. 26th, 2005|04:07 pm] |
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| | NFG ya ya shut up I like them..lol. | ] |
Hmm..well summer school is over on Thursday so that makes me happy!! Then I am going to pick up another job..so that should be fun. I am going to go to the warped tour in MN. Anyone else going?! That would be fun if they were. Nothing to exciting has happened laitly. I am getting my senior pictures at the end of July so that should be fun! Other that than that summer has been kind of non eventful. But what can ya do? |
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